hello

it seems every five steps i take i myself drag my feet back 6. so i now take 6 steps bak and jump 7. I guess slow and steady it is. I have lost all sense of accomplishment even that attached to my name????? i have however found something worth living for. is it true that live begins when you give up? or is it when you are 40. Well am getting there somehow. for some reason i have this feeling am going to die young. then i was told the good die young, so thats that amd pulling a Mugabe. The amount of self hate,doubt,guilt all attributedd to sin is revolting i must say even though its not that bad i guess. but who am i kidding whenever you compare your acts or sins to some1s you know its late. so i was told off the other day by my "friend" after talking to noni about it, it seems it was a bitter act shown through compassion. it takes real guts to tell some1 off. i appreciate anyone who can do that with me. got to much wok now, plus am tryintg to get things ryt with me though am floping. I shall soon share what i have been writing. Dark days gloom, hello sunshine jesus strom come......